So it seems that ever since Mya was born I couldn't wait for her to do the next thing; to walk, to talk, to read, etc (first child syndrome, I suppose because I am the opposite with Kate) but today hit me like a ton of bricks as we walked to her first day of Kindergarten. Mya was completely fine and excited. I on the other hand almost lost it multiple times as we walked the walk to her new school. I wanted time to freeze.
This morning Mya was very excited to help pack her lunch. Mya wanted to bring a picture of her family in case she missed us and of course she had to bring Green Eggs and Ham to read to her teacher. Mya wore her tennis shoes so she could show her new friends how she can tie her shoes. She set a personal goal to be able to tie her own shoes before she started Kindergarten and she made it with a day to spare.
Mya woke up ready to take on the world, I on the other hand felt my heart tug in every direction. I remember the days she clung to my leg as I dropped her off to pre-school. I remember the days when she would want nothing more than just to cuddle in my arms. I remember her first steps, and her first attempts towards independence, and many more firsts.
On our walk to school today she gently held my hand while periodically breaking free to explore things like the dew on the leaf and watch what she called the "sunset" from behind the clouds. "Isn't it beautiful Mom?" On our walk we talked about her new class. Mya looked up at me and said, "Mom, I think you are probably one of the best Moms a kid could have. I'm sure there are other great Moms but I'm glad I have you as my Mom." The lump in my throat deepened as I held back an abundance of tears as I told her I was also so glad to have her as my child because I think the same about her. In that moment my heart swelled with joy and pride.
We arrived to the front of the school, my legs felt heavy and I was holding back the wave of tears. I kept saying to myself, "Don't lose it here, wait until she's gone at least." Mya pranced up to the principal said hello then we walked to the school entrance. Mya was eager to go to her class. I asked her if she knew where to go and she said yes. We exchanged a hug and kiss and I let her go.
Off she went grinning from ear to ear.
As one can imagine I was a tearful wreck. I held it in as much as possible until I got inside my house. My baby is now a Kindergartener!!!
Oh the places she will go :)